Tuesday, September 24, 2013
You see, I believe that you will find love without the barriers of gender. I don't think that it has anything to do with what you've got below your belt it has to do with your heart. I'm not niave enough to say that I will never love a man or fall in love with one because I can't say that with 100% certanty. I just know that I look at women and I'm like "Wow you're pretty and soft and I'd like to date you"
But I will admit that I have looked at boys and been like "Damn, that's a nice beard lets get coffee."
I'm going to fall in love with whoever I do. Whoever can accept all aspects of me.
I just felt like it was important to come out because I felt like it was important to be completely honest with everyone who says they care about me.
So anyway. I know this isn't one of my more elegant blogs but I felt like it needed to be said.
So long story short, I'm still me. Nothing has changed. I've always like girls. I've always like people.
P.S. Bi-hate needs to stop. Not only from the straight community but from the gay community. Like back off.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Now for the explanation for any of you that may be confused. Growing up I always knew I was romantically and physically attracted to woman, but as most of you know I was also raised in a very religious household. Due to the way I was raised I pushed down those feelings as far as I could because I thought there was no way that was the right way to feel and I felt like I would never be loved if I chose to feel that way. Like many in my position I was scared and confused.
However that didn't change my desire for love and affection so I dove into relationship after relationship all failing drastically because I always felt like something was missing and so I would do something to screw it up and move on to the next one no time flat. In doing so i made many mistakes and hurt many people and most of all I hurt myself.
Now still heavily believing in God and in doing so I thought I had to believe the way I felt was wrong I decided that maybe the right thing to do was not date at all and spend time getting to know myself and christ but what I have discovered was not what I thought Id find at all. I found that the only way I am truly going to be happy with myself and not be lonely was to be honest. I have always prided myself on my honesty but I have buried my true self for years out of fear, and I just can't do that any longer. This may not be a shock to most of you, but it will come to a shock to some and even a heart break to others. All I ask is that you continue to love me because I am the same girl you've always known, and if you can't love me now…then you never really did.
So here is to a fresh start of me being my complete self. I will love whoever it is that I fall in love with, and I am determined to be happy.